Should I have an affair?
Relief won’t answer what really hurts
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Why is temptation so convincing?
It never lies about the pleasure. Just the price
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Why do I explode over the smallest things?
You’re still angry about things you swore didn’t hurt
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Why do I treat new love like an old relationship?
Old pain keeps accusing new faces
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Why do I pull away when someone gets too close?
Distance protects parts of you love would expose
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Why do I keep settling for less than I deserve?
You’re protecting yourself from emptiness by filling it with less
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Why do I shame myself for everything?
Punishment became your version of accountability
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Why do I assume something is wrong when everything feels right?
Your nervous system remembers what your heart wants to forget
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How do I become someone people can trust?
Be predictable when it matters
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So what’s the greatest thing I can give to those I love?
A character worth living
Moral
Unkindness to yourself is a serial killer. That may sound harsh, but pain doesn’t always know where to stop. Old pain has a strange way of finding new faces to blame. Let me repeat that: Old pain has a strange way of finding new faces to blame.
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Why is shaming myself so addicting?
Beyond how you were groomed, there’s a spiritual darkness following those who are unaware of their spiritual power. This power hides in the one place it knows most people wouldn’t have the courage to seek—within.
So instead, you prefer to find relief outside yourself that becomes your default. This false belief that “I need something outside of myself to feel whole”, is the serial killer.
In case you’re wondering why this spiritual disease is so deadly: you’ve gotten so good at hurting yourself in private. Healing begins when you finally give yourself some of the mercy you keep giving to others.
Change Your Default
Until The Next Question,
— SEAWZDM